There is a reason I should not watch this show (currently on Season 5 and OBSESSED)
Or watch any crime shows ever.
Or read scary books.
Or watch the news….
Because suddenly, I just know I will meet my untimely demise, and am going to be murdered.
I start creeping slowly towards my shower, and even though I have been home all day, and there is NO possible way someone could enter my place without me noticing, I whip back my shower curtain, because, you know, someone just might be hiding in there.
I get eery feelings and look at all possible “hiding places”. Which really is limited to, again, in my shower, or maybe a very small person with an abnormally small head, under my bed. That’s it.
I double and triple check that I have locked my doors and windows at night.
These shows are just totally polluting my mind. And I know it.
I love it. I can’t get enough.
Blood and gore have no effect on me (well I mean besides putting silly ideas in my head about being murdered and such). I am not one to wince during a gory scene in a movie. I would not faint at the sign of blood. I am kind of numb to the whole idea if it.
I watch crime shows and documentaries ALL THE TIME.
And at the time they have no effect on me but really they do. I should not hear a noise at night and have my mind instantly jump to, “well,you are going to die”.
Then I think, ok, so what happens if something, heaven forbid, were to actually happen. What if when I whipped back that shower curtain and there was someone there ready to kill me??..
I mean, I would probably die.
I have ZERO self defense skills. About the much of a small child. A small, defenseless child.
I can’t even really scream that loud. I don’t have a blood curdling scream.
I know this because one time I went to a birthday party and for fun we had a contest to see who could scream the loudest (why we thought this was fun, I’ m not sure), and I lost, big time.
I mean, I have a weak, pathetic scream.
I could run, but let’s face it, even with a big ol’ burst of adrenaline and survivor instinct thrown in, I am so grossly out of shape that it’s pretty likely someone could catch me fairly quickly…
I mean basically, I am toast.
So, I’m not sure why I even put my self through the torture of just filling my head with garbage of random acts that probably will never happen to me…
But, I will probably continue to do so and make myself more and more paranoid
Because I suffer from a morbid curiosity I guess where I enjoy these crime shows and stories about people gone crazy.
I know I am not alone.
There are other weirdos out there like me whipping back that shower curtain.